First of all, the weather here has been annoying, last week,60's good weather, weekend 90s meh, but in the past 2 days it has dropped over 60 degrees, it was 23 when i left for class this morning. And by the end of the week its sposted to be 80s again.
Which brings me to issue number 1: Due to the crappy weather and me trying to be more healthy riding my bike around. I have Bronchitis, a nasal infection, and a stomach bug. Needless to say, I feel like shit. BUT I cant rest or relax or anything like that. The doctor said i should be going to class and it shouldn't be a problem. even though, I'm not sposted to ride my bike or spend too much time outside. which means, i can either walk the 2/3 mile to school(which would take more than 10 mins being uphill) or I can ride my bike, or I can drive and get a $40 parking ticket. Taking the bus and walking are about the same distance, due to the locations of the bus routes.
Issue number 2: School has been shitty. This week, tomorrow in fact, I have 2 exams. 2 exams that i am not prepared for in the least. I have done all the home work, i havnt missed a day of class, but when working on the 'practices exams' i didn't even understand what the question was asking for 1/2 of them. So i read the book. The book only proved to hinder my understanding of the subject that it was trying to convey to me which just frustrated me more. So right now it looks like i am going to me failing 6 of my 15 hours of class this semester, unless something can change. Also with out telling us, in one of my classes we have a project due, today infact, that i havent had time to start because i have had too much other shit that i have had planned/needed to do. He refuses to extend the due date, even though it was a 'pop major project' didnt tell use about it, wasnt on the syllabus, didnt even bother mentioning it on the first day of class.
Issue number 3: Which brings me to issue number 3. Over the course of the past 10 days, i have had 3 anxiety attacks. When working on work for these 3 classes talked about above. Every time i start working on anything for the class. I come to a part where i dont understand it, and something just kicks in, and i cant control it. My heart rate shoots up, my vision gets blurry, i start to hyper ventilate, and then i black out. The psychologist i have been going to says that it is not a good thing. She suggested trying to go to biofeedback more, but that hasnt been helping. She was worried about me possibly having a nerves breakdown if things dont improve. which lookin at my schedule it doesnt look like anythings guna change much really. Every week until the end of April i have at least 1 exam, 1 major project due, 3-5 home work assignments due. So yeah, Ive lost it and getting worse.

Ive become pretty apathetic towards just bout everything, i really dont give a damn any more.

Well, hes started smoking again, and probably will every night. but this time it wasn't just him, it was him and about 3 others who all came in here, for about 30 seconds but long enough to make the place smell of cigars.
I've already feel sick and its been less than 5 mins since they came and left.

Thank God on friday i move into my 1 person single apartment. no roommate, no smoking, no fuckwit suite mates that dont know how to flush a toilet after they take a shit.
Ill have a kitchen be, closer to all but one of my classes, and just in general be in a much happier place.

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